you've just finished reading the letters on this page, then you've
seen how near you came to losing me.
you have yet to read the letters, be on your guard! The testimony
is so convincing, even I almost fell for it... again!
always have to be on guard when you're dealing with the
forces of good. They will promise you paradise, love and happiness
All of this! And it will only cost
you your soul!
make it sound so easy,
"All you have to do is believe!"
"Even if you don't believe, you
should still ask God into your heart, then you'll have no choice!
You'll just have to accept it."
I suspect that she was probably in her mid to late 40s judging
from her skills to manipulate and clever twisting of words. "Jessicanity"
Christ! What was I thinking!?!? She clearly had the lingo down.
was very clever in making me think that she was just a casual
Christian, believing what she wanted, but still just enough to
dodge Hell. But when push finally came to shove, the truth came
out! I HAD to believe it all whether I wanted to
or not. And if I didn't believe, she was going to have her pastor
I have always thought that I could withstand any amount of persuading,
but their tactics of luring people from the dark side are many.
They use their females as bait.
If the females tell you that they'll send you a picture of themselves,
don't believe them! They'll put it off, forget, or make
it seem nearly impossible to accomplish...
"I would send you my picture, but
I don't have a scanner anymore. But, my friend, Candy, does, and
I can maybe have her scan a picture of me and then email it to
me and then I'll email it to you. Is that okay? It
might be a little while. But
if we keep in touch, it'll be alright."
It's a ploy to keep the conversation (and brainwashing) alive.
They compliment you, and I quote "I
can tell by your emails that you're not slimy."
And if you're still holding strong, they'll bring in the big guns
like pastors and youth counselors to give you an offer you
experience has opened my eyes. Now when I see a group of Christian
youth blowing soap bubbles on the corner of my block, no longer
do I see innocence. Now I know that they are clearly merciless
warriors of good out to destroy all of the evil beliefs that I
hold so dear to my heart.
don't forget to send your Self-Imaging-Association
Images of Truth
yourself for wonderful things!
really bothers me when you say that if I send the picture
you'll accept Jesus Christ into your heart."
not sure I can forgive you that fast. I don't understand how
sending you that kind of picture would help me. As a matter
of fact, I don't WANT to. I don't need to send you a picture
of me like that to help myself. I am totally self-aware of
myself. I don't need to do that, and you don't need to see
it. And no, I don't want to send you my address or phone number.
I want this to be a strictly email communication. Sorry if
I seem harsh, I'm just trying to get my point across. I don't
have a problem emailing you a NORMAL picture of me, I just
refuse to send the other. And
it really bothers me when you say that if I send the picture
you'll accept Jesus Christ into your heart. A simple picture
of someone you don't know will not let God into your heart.
You have to really want it; a picture of me doesn't show that
you want His love.
happy if you are considering repentment. (if that is a word)
But you've already screwed up in this last email...."Jesus
Christ!", "for God's sake!"....those expressions are not acceptable
if you want to be forgiven for your sins. you should NEVER
use God's name in vain. That just shows me that you're not
ready to let God into your heart. You've got a long way to
go if you're actually serious about all this, and you won't
get any picture of me until I am 100% positive that you actually
believe in God, respect what He did for you, and love Him
and want Him to be a part of your life. Keep emailing if you
want, but i just want you to know something. I have been doing
a lot of thinking since I started talking with you....I believe.
I really do. I want God to be part of my life; I want Him
to love me and be in my heart.
will help you get there if that is where you want to be, and
ONLY if that's where you want to be. And about the whole "if
you love me" thing. I love every person on this earth because
of God. I can't say that I love you like my family, close
friends, or boyfriend, but I do have love and respect for
EVERYONE. Better go.
I am pretty much ready to ask God into me, but it's important
that it's the same God you're talking about. A lot of that
stuff I just can't EVER believe. Like the part about gay people
or the ark. But for the things that I can make myself believe
I'd be willing to ask that God into my heart. Just
as long as it's enough to get me into Heaven after I die.
I apologize about
saying "Jesus Christ" & "God Dammit". I don't usually say
those things in vain, I just say them out of habit. I've been
trying instead to say "geez!" or just "dammit!" without the
"God" part. It's hard though because I'm not thinking when
I say those things. And never mind the T&A picture, a normal
picture will do just fine. Sometimes I get a little ahead
You know, I was
thinking that if you don't have a scanner it might be easier
if I sent you a self-addressed stamped envelope for you to
send me your picture in. I'd only need an address to send
it to (not a phone number), OK?
Thank you for loving
me even if it's less than you love others. It's obvious that
you respect everyone. Hell, I could tell that from your first
not JUST about where you will spend eternity."
really glad that you want to ask God into your life. That
is a HUGE step for you, and I don't want you to think that
it will come easy. I know you don't believe a lot of the stories
from the Bible. But when it comes to any religion, including
Christianity, when you believe, you just do. Noah built the
ark and collected all of the animals because he had to. There's
nothing more to it than that. That is what God wanted, and
so that was what had to be done. End of story. That is something
that you just have to accept. That's really the first step
to it all. It has taken me a LONG time to accomplish that.
about getting into Heaven when you die, if that is the only
reason you want this, then you don't deserve it. It's not
JUST about where you will spend eternity. It's about making
your life as good as it can be and knowing that someone loves
you for who you are, and that there will be a wonderful place
has their own theories, but I feel that as long as you believe
in God and His word, that you will go to Heaven. Other people
say you have to let God into your soul, and lots of other
stuff, but I believe that you just have to believe. That's
it. Well, and appreciate and love Him. I still don't know
about the picture yet. It'll be a while if you get one. Sorry.
you want, I can hook you up with this really awesome guy that
I know, Ryan. He's a youth pastor at a church and he's an
incredible guy!!! He could email you back and forth to help
you let God into your life.
me know, and I'll give him your email address. Well, I better
go. Let me know about Pastor Ryan.
Well thank you
Jessica. I have to admit that this big step is kind
of scary for me. I find myself a bit unnerved turning over
my entire life to something I only partially believe in. I
know that you understand..."Jessicanity". I still don't believe
that God exists but I do believe that Jesus died on
a cross, AND I believe that a lot of people thought He died
for the sins of mankind. I definitely believe that, so don't
Let me assure you
that this is not about getting into Heaven for me. I realize
that I don't deserve it. Actually it was imagining myself
in Hell (with the burning oceans and the melting flesh and
the pain with the hurting and shoving) that persuaded me to
join. Geez, you know, I don't even need paradise. I'd be perfectly
content with a pleasant middle ground, like free room and
board with cable or something.
to know that I only have to fake-believe to get the ball rolling
on this. It'll be like acting in a really long play... but
it'll be my life!
Hey, if you're
sure that this youth pastor is in on the whole "believe what
you want" angle we've agreed on, then sure, hook me up!
Thanks again Jessica!
Love Bob ;)
know what you mean about turning your life over to something
you only partially believe in or agree with."
know what you mean about turning your life over to something
you only partially believe in or agree with. But, if you don't
believe in God, can you explain how Jesus rose from the grave???
Or do you not believe that? I think that even if you don't
believe now 100%, the more and more you talk to me and Pastor
Ryan, the more and more you'll begin to believe. I'm not saying
you HAVE TO, but you just might. And I think that if you're
REALLY serious about all of this, you DO deserve to go to
Heaven. But you have to start now. You can't wait until you're
on your death bed to decide, "Okay, I'm ready to die, but
I better start praying because I don't want to go to hell."
It doesn't work that way. And there is NO CHANCE that you
will change if you keep your web page the way it is. It is
a total mockery of Christianity. You're wrong about the whole
"fake-believing" thing. You have to believe if you really
want God in your life. He'll know; He'll know if you're not
serious. It doesn't work that way. It shouldn't be acting.
It should be real; the way you really feel. I'll talk to Pastor
Ryan, and don't be surprised if you get an email from him.
STRONG AND TRUE!!!!
Wait, hold on.
I didn't know that this was going to mean I'd have to take
down my site!?! And you said that I wouldn't have to believe!
What's going on?! Is this how you guys work? You say that
we can believe whatever we want (Jessicanity) and then push
us off onto pastors and youth counselors? Of course I don't
believe that Jesus rose from the dead, no one can do that!
Jessica, I'm starting
to understand that I can't be Christian simply by pseudo-believing.
This really disappoints me and I'm probably not going to recommend
it to my friends. You were close to getting me until you told
me that I have to go with how I really feel. That sucks, because
deep down inside I really just don't buy any of it.
I'm going to put
these letters on my site and maybe people will see that I
tried to give Christianity a chance but it just doesn't fit
in with what I believe. Then if sometime in the future you
guys ease up on all of the requirements, maybe then it'll
fit in with my rules. But until then, I'm going to stick with
what I think is true. Besides, that whole "acting like I believed
for the rest of my life" thing started to sound less and less
appealing the more I thought about it.
I probably don't
stand a chance in Hell of getting pictures of you now, do