to be a pagan, i used to practice witch craft, i used
to listen to marylyn manson, i have 4 tatoos thati got
all in one year
listen i dont know
why i feel the urge to write you, but i have to let you know,
that i used to be a pagan, i used to practice witch craft,
i usedto listen to marylyn manson, i have 4 tatoos thati got
all in one year, i was 18. at 19 i got sober you no.
I am facinated
as i look at all thefans, at the people thatyou appleal to.
I went to school with people like you. The thing is you think
you are sooo different form every one, thatyou are soo much
I used to dress
all gothc and stuff, but I was just a poser man, thats not
me. I hung out with people like you, we smoked weed, talked
"deep" But what is deep? I mean we are ego maniacs. I have
talked to many pagans, and they are all turned off by religion.
I am turned off by religion. religion is just people being
hypocrits. they act like they are sooo good, and then the
pastor is screwing his wifes sister you no. Theytell you thinkgs
like you are going to hell, if you dont follow the 10 commandments
and stuff. i dont blame you for not believing in the god of"religion"
, I am not tryingto preach. I just haveto let you no, that
before I gave my life to jesus, i was depressed, i cut myself,
for real..i wwas a major self mutalator, i loved pain...why?
because it felt better than the chronic depression in my heart.
I admire that you seek the truth. And you have every right
ot want proof. But why do you rule out the possiblity that
Jesus is god? Listen,i am living roof that jesus is real.
I was like the fans on your web sight. And bob...take a look
at them..do really think they are individual..?
all have one thing in commom...they are all "trying" just
like you..are "trying" to be individual. Come on..do you really
no..who you are. Are you so into finding the truth..to actually
find out the truth about yourself. Do you no who you are...?
Are you trying to be individual because you dont wantot be
like everyone else? If you are bob...youve made yourself just
like every oe else. Listen I can say these things...because
I have been there...heck i am there. I am an attention junkie..i
think all humans are..i think we all wantot be accepted...I
think we all wantot be loved.
And since we dont
see god....well..we seek acceptance form what we can see.
Our moms dads friends family you no. I dont no about you bob..but
i have never been accepted in life...by any one.. People at
school made fun of me...made fun of how much smaller i was
then every one else. So i tryed to "fit in you no"..I was
me untill..well people started telling me it wasnt cool to
be "me" so then i just got lost man...
I really dont
believe you are an evil devil worshipping ego maniac at heart
bob...actually i read a conversation you had with mimi love..and
i see soo much tenderness and honesty in you. But guys play
games with girls to bob..tis is a hurtful place..so you have
turned bitter in a sarcastic way..it sems you are using your
talents to cope with this delemma... are you? cuz i dont know...i
mean i dont know alot..i only no what i have experienced...and
i know that you might not even relate to any of the things
I am saying. But i hope you do. Bob, my prayer..about you
loosing your talents is so you can find god...maybe you think
you dont want to..butbob YOu are a truth seeker...and if you
seek for the truth ..youll find him....he is god. Jesus, your
creator. I think you are so inteligent..I am pissed offat
religion because it turns people away form god. That is the
purposue of religion you no. catholic, baptist luthran...oh
they all have there own belifes..the hypocrits..they say they
believe in the bible..but they twist every word to there liking
people..and you no it. and you are right in thatrespect. Then
you have the "christian" that i sall self righteous..and itseasy
to feel thatway..when you are saved and a christian...its
easy to forget that a christian is saved and we are not purpose.
our mission is to seek the truth(god) love the truth(god)
and teach about the truth(god) Because people are mislead.
The bible says"they perish for a lack of knowledge"Listen
bob...ummm...when i was pagan...new age you no..i used to
roam the woods in search of fairies, casting spells and stuff.
I practiced meditation...read about hinduism, shamanisim,
i did tarrot cards like every day..i had two different decks
I loved thatstiff..and
even when i became saved...i practiced it...not knowing I
was tapping into the dark magic...into the devils underwear..you
know.lol. I njoyed the mysical feeling, the sense of power.
But bob, i learned thatit was all an illusion, a way to keep
me form being free...a way to keep me form finding the truth,
a way to keep me trapped bysin and under the devils power.
listen..devils can and do posess people. and they possesedme
at one time. and they possess you , they are tricking youinto
believing that spirits do not exist. so they can control you.
Do you want ot
be controled? why are you letting them controll you? becasue
you cant stop it, becasue you dont know the truth. because
only the truth can set you free.
I really care
about you bob...because I see...II was there where your fans
are...where you may be...All my "therios" are derived form
personal experience...and the teachings of the bible.
YOu know before
i even touched the bible...for a while it sat in my room..like
some old ancient boring book...and meanwhile i was reading
"edgar cayce" books and shaman books..and angel books..and
the new age section at barnes and noble was my thing...but
i noticed that alot of the concepts were taken form the bible...the
old testament that is. And all these religions pretty much
believed that way to heaven was to actgood..but onething they
lack...(jesus) they do not name jesus...not one talked about
a part god part man...thatsacrificed himself on a cross....for
our iniquity..or sin. they spoke of buddah...of krishna..all
had a leader,,..yes...all had a leader...in every religion
there is a leader..but all the leaders do is teach basically
whatjesus taught... the basic things
But i noticed
..that none of those leader died for there followers..jesus
died for his followers..but also and especially for people
like you...who are lost...and bound and lied to. YOU no that
there is spirit in you...science proves the existance of god.
ok..i have said
alot, i just had ro..umm...i no you dont believe a word...
but i care for ya..and i hope god will bring you home...you
seem to have a good heart...why do you want more attention
form girls anyway? dont they just confuse you? theysure confuse
me...i am nt judging you at all bob...from whati have seen
of your art work and comedy..i am impressed you are hilarious.
I am sorry if i ofended you about that prayer...i hope you
can forgive me man.